Saturday, March 25, 2006

Taking a Break

I'm taking a break from the internets and blogging for a while. I haven't been up to posting anything because I've been feeling pretty depressed lately. I'm sure I'll be okay, but I need some time in order to get over whatever it is that's making me feel this way. It might be a day or two, or it might be a month or more. I can't really say at this point.

I would blog about it, but like I mentioned here before, there are some things I just can't talk about here. Not only because of my audience (hi mom-in-law and husband), but because I still haven't been able to get past the "talking about your feelings is bad" mentality that I've had for the past 30 years. I'm sure talking about it would make me feel better, and possibly help get rid of the darkness in my head, but I can't because this is an uber public outlet. So it's a Catch-22, I guess. Maybe I need to get over both the fear of discussing depression and the fear of everyone reading about it. Eh, I don't know.

Anyway, I'm sure I'll be ok. I will be back when I can. Carry on.

Thanks.

6 comments:

Karyn said...

Depression is a cruel taskmaster, so you just do what you need to do to take care of yourself.

Sometimes I write down all that I feel, just as it comes out - as fast as I can type it - in an email and send it to myself.

I get a sense of clarity not only reading, but in typing it all out. The act of spewing it into an email uncensored and unstructured gives me an amazing sense of release.

Fare thee well HB.

Noni A. said...
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Voix said...

Good luck getting out from under the cloud. You can do it.

Karyn said...

I'm glad you removed that comment from Noni A. Some people are just...I don't know words fail me.

Come back when you can. I hope your new job goes well.

Anonymous said...

Can you not make this private? only for certain people to see/read???

This is your BLog you should not be censoring yourself if people can't accept who/what you are isn't that worst that writting about your true feeling?

Sara

Jessi said...

I hope the good groceries and cooking will help you feel better. Supposedly domestic type tasks occupy one physically so that the subconscious can work through whatever's going down.

Thanks for the link! Spring is on the way.