Is This Job Half-Full or Half-Empty?

I'm in the middle of my fourth week at this temp job. That means I have four weeks to go. Or, to put it differently, 18 more work days. I prefer to count down the actual work days, rather than the weeks remaining. It sounds a lot better to me that way.

Today I stuffed envelopes for 4 hours. I made phonecalls for 2 hours, and did internet research for the remaining two hours. Looks like more of the same tomorrow. I really can't complain about this job. Yes, it's mind numbingly boring, but I get to listen to music and audiobooks. Since I got my MP3 player one week into the job, I've listened to the following unabridged books:

On Bullshit (boring)

Chuck Klosterman IV : A Decade of Curious People and Dangerous Ideas (really good)

How I Paid for College : A Novel of Sex, Theft, Friendship & Musical Theater (super good, but parts were NSFW! Glad I had headphones on!)

Nickel and Dimed : On (Not) Getting By in America (OK, but majorly flawed)

The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big, Round Things (Cute. It's a YA book)

Prom (Horrible. Another YA book)

The Best American Nonrequired Reading 2002 (Pretty good)

A Cook's Tour - In Search Of The Perfect Meal (I'm in the middle of this one right now)

I've been downloading most of the audiobooks from netlibrary because it's free. I've also got a crapload of audiobooks on hold for me from the library. I just wish it didn't take so long to upload them all to my Vision. I guess it's a small price to pay for being able to get through the workday.

So I'm getting paid to listen to books! If I wasn't able to listen to the books or music, I'd go bonkers. Of course, I can't listen to them when I'm on the phone, so I try and get my phone calls made before 11 so I can do the rest of my job with my headphones on.

So, yeah. 18 more work days to go. I'm hoping the temp agency places me with something right after this assignment ends. Something tells me it will be a while before I get another job, but at least now I have money in the bank so I won't be so stressed out.

That's all for now, folks.

I'm Drained

Tonight I feel drained. Physically, mentally, and emotionally.

I've just about had it with this horrendous commute. I hate getting up before 6am in order to get to my job by 8am. Then I get home at 5:30, only have 4 hours to do stuff I need to do before having to go to bed. I hardly see my husband and have only two hours a week to meet up with my friend Brandee for drinks and cheap bar food. This kind of sleep-work-eat-repeat life really sucks, to be honest.

Tonight I feel completely run down. My body is a bit achy and tired. My brain seems a bit mushy. All I can think about is going to bed, but I promised Phillip I'd wait up for him so we can watch Survivor together. Emotionally I feel kind of weak; like I could cry at any second. Why? Hell I if I know. All around, I just feel blah.

Maybe it's because it's Thursday and I know I have to trudge through one more day of work before I can get a little relief over the weekend. But this weekend is booked full of sewing, cleaning, grocery shopping, laundry, and general house chores. Fun!

I guess all I really have to think about are the following two points: 1) I have 20 more days at this job before it's over and 2) this job has put money in the bank and allowed me to pay off bills that I wouldn't have been able to one month ago. Also, I'm getting paid to listen to audiobooks while I stuff envelopes or enter numbers into a database. All-in-all, I've got it pretty good. I shouldn't complain, right?

Then why do I feel so.....blah?

It must be Winter.


To make it so this post isn't totally Debbie Downer, here's a funny photo of Lola with a horse on her back (don't ask):