Lola and Phillip

Lola and Phillip
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Lola sits next to me pretty much all day and keeps me company. Phillip joined her last night for a little while, which made me smile. My back still isn't better, although I'm thinking that it feels a little better? I can't tell, since I've upped the dose of Vicodin. I felt well enough today to clean up the kitchen. I couldn't do that three days ago, for sure. But then again, the kitchen is the smallest room in the house, so it's not like I had to work very hard or long. Anyway, I just hope I'm able to recover from this fall soon, because I don't want to rely on painkillers anymore to be able to make it through the day.

I'm still unemployed, and kind of depressed about it. Any of you out there have openings in your companies, or do you know of anyone who is hiring? I'm super smart and super talented and the best thing about me (besides the fact that I'm a hard worker) is that I learn new things super fast. That means I'm adaptable. The Temp agencies I'm working with don't seem to be helping me at all. I guess it's good I'm not paying them, right?

If anyone has any ideas for me as far as employment, please comment!

Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend. I'm going to take a nap.

A Side Effect of Vicodin

One of the side effects of Vicodin is "itching". Seems like I'm one of those people it happens to. Two mornings ago I woke up with scratches all over my belly. This morning (or rather, at 3am) I woke up with two scratches on my inner wrists. I put bacitracin and a band aid over them right away to stop the itching and also to prevent myself from scratching more.



Sure, I'm depressed about my back, my empty bank account, and the fact that I can't find a job. But I'm not so depressed that I want to off myself! These scratches look like I tried to slit my wrists! Not very attractive, for sure.

So now I'm not sure what I want to do. I could sleep with gloves on so I don't scratch myself up, but I'm sure I'd take them off and my hands would get all gross and sweaty. I could stop taking the vicodin, but that means I wouldn't sleep at all.

One good thing that's happened while on vicodin is that I'm actually able to breathe out my nose! It's like I don't have that polyp obstruction anymore. Of course, I can't keep taking vicodin for allergies, but it sure is a relief.

Argh! I'm so sick of this it's not even funny. Anyone else experience any itching on vocodin?

Painkillers?

I went to my doctor yesterday because my back is just not geting any better. She gave me good news - that I didn't do any serious damage (although it feels like I broke my back) but that it will be/might be a long healing process. I left her office with a script for both Tylenol w. Codeine and Vicadin. Good, right?

I took the codeine and promptly fell asleep. I woke up two hours later feeling groggy, but not in any less pain. Six hours after that I took a vicadin, praying that it would take the pain away and let me sleep. Nope. I was up at least 5 times in the night with screaming pain in my back and leg. As a result, I didn't get up and start the day until noon.

I decided to try again. Another codeine made me drowsy. Four hours later I took a vicadin. NOTHING! No relief from this pain at all. It's almost time for another vicadin and I don't know if I can even be bothered. There's no use killing my liver if I'm not getting anything out of it, right?

I don't get why people say that vicadin is awesome. Hell, I can't even see how people can get addicted to it. It's done absolutley nothing for me and I'm pissed. So I'll have to call my doctor tomorrow to see if she can either 1) up the dose or 2) prescribe something different.

Because I cannot handle another day of this terrible pain.